"The Scorpio in Me"
My trauma started as a baby when my mom kicked out my dad
Devastated by my home life, I was told that I was bad
I used to kick and punch her when she lied down in my bed
Guess I wasn't happy with the life that I had
I was only four years old when my cat passed away She was euthanized cause of my asthma attack that day
My mother tried to lie to me, but her lies were in vain
Goofy went to cat heaven she finally exclaimed
I cried out of anger, I cried out of pain My cat Goofy was dead now and I was to blame
My first therapy session was an eye opening affair
I sat in the waiting room while my mom was in there
With five minutes to go I finally entered to say "Hello"
I was told to be a good girl, listen to mom, you know?
No one asked me how I felt or if anything was wrong
It wasn't my therapy session so why did I even come along?
My mother handed her a check and that's when I knew
The therapist only cared about the payment that was due
That was a very important lesson for me you see
I learned that you can't trust people when they're just out for your money
One fateful day child protective services arrived
My mom told me they'd take me away if I didn't lie
So I didn't mention the physical, emotional or mental abuse
Thought I'd end up in a foster home if I told the truth
So instead I just ended up staying abused
Pisces sun sign, scorpio rising, scorpio moon
I've suffered so that I can share my story with you
Pisces sun sign, scorpio rising, scorpio moon I'm a better person for all the pain that I've been through
In nursery school they made me sleep alone across the room
Having been disruptive I was isolated from the group
In kindergarten I was hospitalized for a bad case of the chicken pox
In the hospital for a week- my immune system was shot
In second grade I lost my first ever best friend
Our mothers had a falling out so our friendship had to end
I developed terrible headaches, back pain and inflammation
I struggled with exhaustion, I really needed a vacation
In junior high school I was bullied, they threw gum into my hair
and I lost a second best friend, she walked away cause she was scared
In high school my first real boyfriend decided to break up with me
and in college I was purposely given an STD
I was labeled a whore but I was just misunderstood
I developed stomach problems, my health was no good
I went to the hospital where I was diagnosed with gastritis
I suffered from depression with no energy to fight it
I had to change my diet, quit smoking cigarettes
I had to change my lifestyle, eliminate the stress
I had an epiphany that I was supposed to do entertainment
Tell my story, make a difference, be a role model and be famous
So I moved to California with my manager and best friend
But she turned out to be a backstabber and so our friendship had to end
I became a better person though and started practicing meditation
I visited several doctors, found out I have the MTHFR gene mutation
So I researched natural cures, became a healer, found my salvation
Learned that true emancipation lies in spiritual transformation
Pisces sun sign, scorpio rising, scorpio moon I've suffered so that I can share my story with you Pisces sun sign, scorpio rising, scorpio moon I'm a better person for all the pain that I've been through
Jennie H is a Reiki Master Energy Healer, Co-Founder of Self Saviorz Society California Non-Profit 501(c)(3), Poet, Author and Entertainer with goals to help raise the vibration and consciousness of humanity!
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