My First Time Observing The Jewish Holiday Shavuot (also called Shavuos)!
If you've been following my blog articles then you know that I was raised Jewish in a non-religious non-observant household. In my youth I attended synagogue on the high holidays (sometimes) and celebrated well-known holidays like Passover and Chanukah (sometimes). We never observed Shabbat in our home which is something I do every Friday through Saturday night now by myself... Well, I observe shabbat with my 3 beautiful cats! Every Friday night after saying the Hamotzi over the challah, I yell out Shabbat Shalom Roscoe, Shabbat Shalom Felix, Shabbat Shalom Dottie! And in return my 3 cats stare at me with blank expressions... in lazy anticipation that a meal will be placed on the floor for them at any moment...
But back to the story... Shavuot (in Hebrew)... Shavuos (in English) I never observed this Holiday ever! In fact, I don't recall every hearing about it! It seems like one of those vague, not so popular Jewish Holidays that go unnoticed. At least that's been the case for me!
So what is Shavuot? Shavuot is a Jewish holiday that celebrates the giving of the Torah on Mount Sinai as well as the grain harvest for the summer. In biblical times, Shavuot was one of three pilgrimage festivals in which all the Jewish men would go to Jerusalem and bring their first fruits as offerings to God. Supposedly, during the 2 days of Shavuot (one day in Israel), we are tuning in and energetically connecting with the event of the Torah being given on Mount Sinai. According to Jewish tradition, on the sixth day of Sivan 6, some 3,500 years ago, Moses climbed up Mount Sinai. During his 40-day stay on the mountain, God dictated to him not only the Ten Commandments but the whole Torah, as well as the Oral Law. When observing the Holiday of Shavuot it is as if we are there with Moses at Mount Sinai receiving the Ten Commandments and the Torah! I can attest that I felt the immense energy over the weekend! It reminded me of the energy of Passover... but not so overwhelming this time, since I decided not to meditate with my high frequency synergy stones. I simply opted to meditate with my ye ming zhu stones this time instead and place my synergy stones on different kabbalistic prayers on my ancestor altar.
So how did I observe Shavuot you ask? Well, I don't attend synagogue... cause being around people just ain't my thing! I basically stayed home and immersed myself in Torah study and prayer. It was great actually! Shavuot started right after Shabbat ended on Saturday night. After performing Havdallah to end shabbat, which I don't think I did correctly this time but that's okay... I lit a 3 Day Yahrzeit Candle followed by the Holiday "Yom Tov" candles and recited the Holiday blessing as well as the shehecheyanu blessing. Then I recited the Holiday Kiddush which I accidentally forgot to look up and print out so I had to improvise and convert the Passover Kiddush into a Shavuot kiddush. I think it worked out pretty well until I mentioned the Exodus from Egypt which has nothing to do with the Ten Commandments! So I started the prayer over to fix my mistake! Oh well, I did my best!
That night, after eating my Holiday meal, which consisted of a salad and left over challah bread, I read through all the Torah Portions for Day 1 of the Holiday. I also read the Ten Commandments... Everything in English by the way. I wish I had the ten commandments in Hebrew! Oh well! But I couldn't stop there! I had read that on the first night of Shavuot one is supposed to stay up all night reading and studying the Torah. At the very least one should stay up as late as they can doing so. I really didn't want to mess up my circadian rhythm (which is basically messed up anyway) but the energy was so intense. I ingested my cbd oil to prepare for bed but I still felt wide awake! I was excited and super energized reading the Torah! So I decided to follow some instructions I had read earlier. I read the first and last chapter of every book in the Torah. Supposedly doing so is equivalent to reading the entire Torah. This was the first time I ever did this and it felt amazing! I've already read the entire Torah once before... (not in one sitting) But never like this!
After all this reading I finally had to force myself to go to bed... As I was laying in bed I started reciting my bedtime prayers. I began reciting "Shema Yisrael Adonai Eloheinu Adonai Echad. Baruch Shem Kvod malchuto l'olam vaed" This mean: Hear O' Israel, the Lord is Our God, The Lord is One. Blessed be the name of God and his glorious Kingdom for ever and ever. As I recited these powerful Hebrew words I felt air pressure hit my left ear and enter my head. Usually when this happens I hear a ringing sound (sometimes accompanied by the air pressure feeling) which allows me to know that I've connected with the energy I am speaking of. It almost feels as if angels are communicating with me, responding to my prayer, but I just can't hear them. I just feel sensations that make me aware of their presence. It was a great feeling. I haven't experienced the ringing or air pressure feeling in a while while praying. This allowed me to know that I had connected with the energy of the Holiday!
The next day I slept late... Just like the original Jews/ Hebrews did on the day that they were given the Torah. It was Sunday and the energy was immense. I had been placing my synergy stones and ye ming zhu stones on different prayers on my ancestor altar. My whole bedroom was on fire from the energy my altar was emitting. Super high frequency! So I recited kiddush again, had a fruit shake, some nuts and challah bread, said grace after meals (as I always do) and read the psalms for the first day of Shavuot. After this things got weird... Allow me to explain...
Everyday I perform a solar ritual on my balcony whereby I light a candle, burn incense and recite a daily devotion to the sun and planetary devotion for the day. Then I burn ancestor money for my ancestors. Then I go into my bedroom, light a candle, burn incense and recite an invocation to the Jade Emperor, I say a prayer to him and provide him with a meal offering. So if you're an observant Jew then you already know what the problem is! Shavuot is a holiday commemorating the giving of the Torah and the Ten Commandments on Mount Sinai. Commandment Number 2 states: "You shall have no other gods beside Me. You shall not make for yourself any carved idol, or any likeness of any thing... you shall not bow down to them, nor serve them..." Well, I have a statue of the Jade Emperor on my ancestor altar! This is definitely breaking the 2nd commandment. I was in a pickle! A great conundrum! What was I to do?
I already had a conversation with the Emperor on Friday explaining to him my dilemma. I told him that I would probably just place his meal on his altar without burning a candle or incense or reciting his invocation. I was hoping that this would be okay and not upset him. However, what about Hashem and all his angels? Perhaps this would be a direct insult to them? How could I purposely break the 2nd commandment on a day when I'm reading the commandments and connecting with that energy. I didn't know what to do! I was trying to find a solution so that everyone in the spirit world would be happy. I finally decided to recite my daily devotion to the sun and planetary devotion for the day without lighting a candle or burning incense on my balcony. I skipped burning the ancestor money. I burned extra money for the ancestors on Friday before Shabbat!
My heart was beating fast... I was nervous. Should I provide the Emperor with his meal on Shavuot? Which could be taken as an insult by Hashem... or not provide him with his meal which would be an insult to the Emperor? I finally decided that I would place the Emperor's meal on his altar without burning a candle or incense nor reciting his invocation. But I was torn. I felt bad all around. I decided to add some reiki energy to the whole event. I placed reiki symbols all over the offering asking that the offering be pleasing to the Emperor and acceptable to Hashem. It was a tense moment. I placed the offering on the altar and continued sending energy to the offering while having a conversation with everyone explaining my dilemma. I felt reiki pains in my hands. I got nervous. Someone wasn't happy. The energy was reminiscent of my most recent blunder when I started working with Saint Expedite and then had the grand realization that my spirit guides and the Emperor were not happy about this at all. I wanted to cry. Why did I even do this? In retrospect I should've paused all rituals and just observed Shavuot! So I started apologizing to everyone, asking for forgiveness, explaining my motives. I told Hashem and the Jade Emperor that I assumed they worked together. And if that were the case then giving this offering should be okay.
I explained that I know that Hashem is the most high divine creator and that the Jade Emperor is a God/ spirit that was put in charge of Heaven and the Celestial Treasury. I explained that I am not entirely aware of what happens in the spiritual realm but that I want to make everyone happy. I do not wish to upset or disrespect anyone. That is not my intention. After a moment the reiki pains subsided and I knew that all the spirits had forgiven me and that I had invoked compassion within them for my dilemma. Or so it seemed? I genuinely hoped so! On a side note... I had read somewhere once before, perhaps in the Zohar, that Idol worship could be overlooked and forgiven if the people of Israel were at peace with one another. I thought that was interesting. Although in reality I do not consider performing invocations and providing the Jade Emperor with meal offerings as idol worship. I see the Emperor as a very powerful being (one of many powerful beings in the universe) who just so happens to work for the most high divine creator, Hashem. If that's the case, then how can anyone be mad? Also, my ancestor altar, although asian themed, is also full of kabbalistic prayers. It's quite an unusual altar mixing asian culture with Judaism. But it seems to work!
At this point I was overwhelmed and over energized... the only thing I could think to do was lie down in my meditation pyramid and pray some more and continue explaining myself to the most High Divine Creator and the Jade Emperor. Before doing so I placed a photo of myself over the 72 Names of God for "Dialing God" (lamed vav vav) which sits on my ancestor altar in my bedroom. I may have also added my synergy stones to my photo on top of "Dialing God" at that moment. I don't remember exactly. I had been moving the synergy stones and ye ming zhu stones around on my altar since before Shavuot began. However, I was hoping that by placing my photo on "Dialing God" I would receive an answer to my dilemma. So I lied down in my meditation pyramid, and while holding my AOS medallion, I had a conversation with the Gods. I told God/ Hashem/ The most High..."You know my heart. You know my intentions. You know that they are only for the greater good." Something told me not to worry. These commandments were given to some very bad people who needed to be cleaned up. The most high basically told me "You are not one of those people. You are a good person with a good spirit. You already know intuitively to follow the Ten Commandments without having to be told to do so. The Jews/ Hebrews in ancient days were worshipping demons. That was the problem. The idol worship they were performing was negative and making them worse people." In reality, what I am doing is not negative! I was relieved. Then something told me to start reading passages in the Zohar that pertained to Shavuot. But first I recited my Kabbalistic Prayers for Protection and Abundance while wearing a Ye Ming Zhu on my head and one on my belly.
The energy was so overwhelming that I had to take a nap. When I woke up I started reading passages in the Zohar in Hebrew and in English. I lit the holiday candles a second time from the pre-existing flame (my Yahrzeit Candle), I recited the prayers and the kiddush again. Ate dinner and then read some more stuff! Prayers, etc... Sleep... The next day the energy still felt pretty high... More reading and praying, meditating and napping. I performed my solar ritual on the balcony without candles and incense again, but I didn't dare give the Emperor another meal offering. I wasn't going to put myself through that stress again. The Holiday finally ended. I recited the Holiday Havdallah and put out the Yahrzeit Candle. I could feel the mundane energy sneaking up on me and it didn't feel good. I wanted to stay in Shavuot mode forever. So in an effort to hold onto that good energy I continued playing the "Shema Yisrael" audio in the background. It had been playing in the background almost the entire holiday. I also decided to continue reading the Tanakh. It brought me comfort. So the next day, when I finally turned my phone back on, I found out that I had made quite a few sales over the weekend with my online companies and my entertainer partner told me that a whole bunch of huge situations were underway for us! Wow! I thought to myself... The Gods (Hashem and the Jade Emperor) are not upset at me afterall... The Gods must be pleased with me! They sent me sales! And bigtime entertainment situations! I must've done something right over the weekend! Awesome! So much for breaking the 2nd commandment on Shavuot! God may be a jealous God, but apparently he (it) is also a compassionate and forgiving God. Thank God! lol :)
Jennie H is a Reiki Master Energy Healer, Co-Founder of Self Saviorz Society California Non-Profit 501(c)(3), Poet, Author and Entertainer with goals to help raise the vibration and consciousness of humanity!